Very quiet day. Read and surmised as I am reading Jack Canfield's book on Success Principles.
Sounds like T.HarvEcker all over again so far.
Good Blitz in the morning. Had some successful comments. Good.
Cool day, some snow. County is headed for whatever economically. I like what I am doing and at the pace I can do it.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
The Past
Sure been going thru some dips here lately. May have another one in the morning with the new bank account. What does it take to overcome the affects of autism.
I like the use of words, yet I have a hard time understanding the meaning of words at times, like there is a lag time in understanding.
What is next? How to deal with those who brand you?
No one wants to give an inch, not the present or the past. People watch and judge me I feel. So much depends on how I proceed. Certainly not in fear.
Not a bad day. New book from the library by Jack Canfield.
I like the use of words, yet I have a hard time understanding the meaning of words at times, like there is a lag time in understanding.
What is next? How to deal with those who brand you?
No one wants to give an inch, not the present or the past. People watch and judge me I feel. So much depends on how I proceed. Certainly not in fear.
Not a bad day. New book from the library by Jack Canfield.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Decent day
Howard Case sure knows little about genealogy.
Got a few things done today. Working on little things. Found the name of the lady of the Case clan in Paden, OK, got Lawrence E. Case's name, called him. His father is Elmer Case, grandfather is a William Martin Case born in Indiana.
Cleaned out some files, dumped them in town. Bought a coke and bread, came home.
Got Saturn into the garage, short is at the starter I believe.
Wind has come up, still warm. Do wants to go with her, I am telling her no. What is with her?
Loaded up some tires and stuff to get rid of. Need to load tools to take on injector rail tomorrow.
Good day. Am free of the Case study DNA. Wow. I feel great.
Got a few things done today. Working on little things. Found the name of the lady of the Case clan in Paden, OK, got Lawrence E. Case's name, called him. His father is Elmer Case, grandfather is a William Martin Case born in Indiana.
Cleaned out some files, dumped them in town. Bought a coke and bread, came home.
Got Saturn into the garage, short is at the starter I believe.
Wind has come up, still warm. Do wants to go with her, I am telling her no. What is with her?
Loaded up some tires and stuff to get rid of. Need to load tools to take on injector rail tomorrow.
Good day. Am free of the Case study DNA. Wow. I feel great.
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Thank you for your reply. I can understand both sides of this situation. The group administrator has a responsibility to the project to ensure to the best of his ability that genealogical information is correct and correlate it in a way that makes it useful for all participants. You are not obliged to provide this information but the group administrator is within their right to remove the results or inform the members of possible discrepancies in the information presented to them from a member, it is also within their right to inform members of the privacy policy in regards to publishing results or information about the group project.
Darren Marin
Family Tree DNA
713.868.1438
http://www.FamilyTreeDNA.com
"We Put the Gene in Genealogy
This amounts to censorship. Howard Case knows nothing of the insult he is to genealogy
Monday, February 23, 2009
Caravan
Made 2 trips to town today to show my 92 Caravan, both need to find something else. Both had complaints like the price was to high or something. Spent time fixing small things before I show it. Will repair them and raise the price tomorrow. It will be worth my time that way.
Lots of activity today. People still don't seem to be listening. Kept wondering today am I missing something, like all people wanted to do was complain.
So much for them. I have done what I can for today and as well as I can, if it doesn't fit you, forget it. I liked what I did and how I handled myself.
People seem disparate, fearful of the worse. Tired of listening to the news.
Family Tree DNA responded and took the side of the administrator. So sad for them.
Purina Cat Chow is being put into 16# bags rather than 18# bags according to Walmart and the price is being increased. Walmart has been out of Chow for 2 weeks because of this conflicit.
Having to find cat food at remote grocery stores.
Lots of activity today. People still don't seem to be listening. Kept wondering today am I missing something, like all people wanted to do was complain.
So much for them. I have done what I can for today and as well as I can, if it doesn't fit you, forget it. I liked what I did and how I handled myself.
People seem disparate, fearful of the worse. Tired of listening to the news.
Family Tree DNA responded and took the side of the administrator. So sad for them.
Purina Cat Chow is being put into 16# bags rather than 18# bags according to Walmart and the price is being increased. Walmart has been out of Chow for 2 weeks because of this conflicit.
Having to find cat food at remote grocery stores.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Family Tree DNA
Howard Case of the Case DNA study on Family Tree DNA kicked me off the list because I use methods foreign to him and because of his bigoted and narrow mindedness, kinda like a mini Hitler.
Tried working with the Saturn today. No success. Will try tomorrow.
Quiet weekend. Working on outlining Seth Godin's book, Meatball Sundae.
Working on major items on my list. Reading Amen''s book on ADD.
Tried working with the Saturn today. No success. Will try tomorrow.
Quiet weekend. Working on outlining Seth Godin's book, Meatball Sundae.
Working on major items on my list. Reading Amen''s book on ADD.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Kantian
Kantian thought seeks to remold man in the image of some artibrary authority or man made morals. We can see this leading to the making of AI and robots.
Man is made my his Maker, not Kantian thought provoking idol worshippers who feel that man can do better with these unabsolute morals to make new rules and laws that fit some .....
No where do I see Kantian thinking being successful, except in the godless statements and programs allowed to rule programs.
Autistic men and women are made in the image of God, not some kantian trained moralist. Therein lies the problem, do we treat others with the due respect of a soul created by God or someone who claims to be an overseer of that person's soul.
Man is made my his Maker, not Kantian thought provoking idol worshippers who feel that man can do better with these unabsolute morals to make new rules and laws that fit some .....
No where do I see Kantian thinking being successful, except in the godless statements and programs allowed to rule programs.
Autistic men and women are made in the image of God, not some kantian trained moralist. Therein lies the problem, do we treat others with the due respect of a soul created by God or someone who claims to be an overseer of that person's soul.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
T.Harv Eker
T.Harv Eker. Threw out all his material today. The bloated syngeristic speaker is an
Elkhart Tolle in another skin. Our country doesn't need these white veiled shamans in the business sector.
Threw out also Early to Rise, Investment U, Frank Kern, Stephen Pierce, and others. Tired of the emails and barrages of who is best and who can get you to a $ goal before the other.
Horrible day feeling wise. Walked the dog, a major accomplishment today.
Where I go from here, no idea.
Elkhart Tolle in another skin. Our country doesn't need these white veiled shamans in the business sector.
Threw out also Early to Rise, Investment U, Frank Kern, Stephen Pierce, and others. Tired of the emails and barrages of who is best and who can get you to a $ goal before the other.
Horrible day feeling wise. Walked the dog, a major accomplishment today.
Where I go from here, no idea.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Rejection
Seems like everyone wants to reject me. More crap from the ex. Doesn't matter what I do or not do. There is no respect from her towards me.
What a ball of hair. The cats get along better with me than her.
Quess I will certainly stay away from her. I haven't got time for bs. She refuses to face her own personality and how it affects her. I am not the cause of her unhappiness nor can I nor do I want to be a part of it.
That is all I get from her is crap, no matter what. Just spent 5 weeks replacing the engine in her caravan. No thanks. No nothing except I can't stand you, you are a nightmare. Well let her be a nightmare unto herself.
What a ball of hair. The cats get along better with me than her.
Quess I will certainly stay away from her. I haven't got time for bs. She refuses to face her own personality and how it affects her. I am not the cause of her unhappiness nor can I nor do I want to be a part of it.
That is all I get from her is crap, no matter what. Just spent 5 weeks replacing the engine in her caravan. No thanks. No nothing except I can't stand you, you are a nightmare. Well let her be a nightmare unto herself.
Tuesday
Tuesday. Sunny silent morning, birds, meadowlarks are about, a few robins. Neighbor speeds by on way to work. Simple walk. Furnace has shut off finally. Hate the heat and the noise in this old trailer.
50 degrees, hope to get my other Saturn going, sell the station wagon. Sell Dodge caravan.
It is a good day, watched PBS on Freetown, Africa last night. Seems freedom has to be won to be respected. The British didn't honor the black man's right to freedom.
50 degrees, hope to get my other Saturn going, sell the station wagon. Sell Dodge caravan.
It is a good day, watched PBS on Freetown, Africa last night. Seems freedom has to be won to be respected. The British didn't honor the black man's right to freedom.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Choice
Autism is a choice, even when made in the face of violence and family disturbances. That choice propels one into a way of living that is not uncommon.
The forms of autism that require medical attention, let SPECT scans seek to find the biological workings of the brain before sentence is passed.
The forms of autism that require medical attention, let SPECT scans seek to find the biological workings of the brain before sentence is passed.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Michael Jordan
This is a great post for people new to the social media world. Sometimes when you view someone as an expert, it's great to see how they started and learn some background about them. It shows that they didn't just roll out of bed and know a ton about social media. They were once beginners too.
I love sports, so here's a sports quote that fits well with this post.
"I have missed more than 9,000 shots in my career. I have lost almost 300 games. On 26 occasions I have been entrusted to take the game winning shot... and I missed. I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that's precisely why I succeed."
-Michael Jordan
I love sports, so here's a sports quote that fits well with this post.
"I have missed more than 9,000 shots in my career. I have lost almost 300 games. On 26 occasions I have been entrusted to take the game winning shot... and I missed. I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that's precisely why I succeed."
-Michael Jordan
Tolle
Eclhart Tolle is part of the new age, Oprah one world religion. Am saying no to him and Guy Finley.
It is not so much as throwing out the trash as to what is going on with me that attracts this New Age trash, kinda like the Gina King thing at the T.Harv Ecker seminar.
Ecker needs to go from my haunts also, as well as others. Where this leaves me, I?
Am glad to be without them in many ways. What do I deal with in me that wants this stuff or this psuedo spirituality? Am I psuedo spiritual as well?
Was told the other night not to talk about autism and how it affects me?
What a joke.
It is not so much as throwing out the trash as to what is going on with me that attracts this New Age trash, kinda like the Gina King thing at the T.Harv Ecker seminar.
Ecker needs to go from my haunts also, as well as others. Where this leaves me, I?
Am glad to be without them in many ways. What do I deal with in me that wants this stuff or this psuedo spirituality? Am I psuedo spiritual as well?
Was told the other night not to talk about autism and how it affects me?
What a joke.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Today
Forget about Sally Witt and Heather Jamuah. If you want feminism in the sure rectal postion, forget them.
I am peeved, feeling rejected and tired of the crap and games people play.
Said no to Steve Little tonight also as he plays the pay at the end type game also.
Sad day. Somewhat disbelieving in a lot. I wonder what I do tomorrow.
Nana, nana.
I am peeved, feeling rejected and tired of the crap and games people play.
Said no to Steve Little tonight also as he plays the pay at the end type game also.
Sad day. Somewhat disbelieving in a lot. I wonder what I do tomorrow.
Nana, nana.
Heather
Found this group of people working on self development. I like that. Find the company stimulating and informative.
Dr. Sally Witt heads it up.
Dog and I went for our walk. Crisp and cool, 15 degrees. Sunny, suppose to storm today.
Amelia took the van to work today. Seems to run fine, except brakes. Made an appointment with a mechanic to check that out at 1PM. Kinda proud of myself for getting the engine in and running for a miminal cost, $300 for the used engine from Donlin Auto and about $150 in new parts and replacement items. It is an old vehicle, but Amelia likes it, besides a decision to buy another vehicle would put to much stress on our finances.
Still working on wind turbines. Left business cards with Nicki and Highline Electric.
Cut wood and put down several other items on my project list.
Dr. Sally Witt heads it up.
Dog and I went for our walk. Crisp and cool, 15 degrees. Sunny, suppose to storm today.
Amelia took the van to work today. Seems to run fine, except brakes. Made an appointment with a mechanic to check that out at 1PM. Kinda proud of myself for getting the engine in and running for a miminal cost, $300 for the used engine from Donlin Auto and about $150 in new parts and replacement items. It is an old vehicle, but Amelia likes it, besides a decision to buy another vehicle would put to much stress on our finances.
Still working on wind turbines. Left business cards with Nicki and Highline Electric.
Cut wood and put down several other items on my project list.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Rain and wind
Got some needed rain. Wind came later. Worked on van. Fuel injectors and lines need to be replaced. Another day to running it.
Spoke with 9 people in Chicago tonight. Good time. Lots of encouragement.
Feeling sheepish for people believing in me, when I struggle each moment to do so.
Walked the dog. Road a bit muddy from rain, sun out. No wild animals seen. Saw my first skunk out this way a few days ago.
Winter wheat is hurting, this rain will help.
My econmony is okay and growing.
Steve Little returned my email. Wow.
Spoke with 9 people in Chicago tonight. Good time. Lots of encouragement.
Feeling sheepish for people believing in me, when I struggle each moment to do so.
Walked the dog. Road a bit muddy from rain, sun out. No wild animals seen. Saw my first skunk out this way a few days ago.
Winter wheat is hurting, this rain will help.
My econmony is okay and growing.
Steve Little returned my email. Wow.
Sensory
Sensory deprivation is a key factor in autism, forcing children to choose a life of silence within themselves. In their introspection, the traits develop of varying kinds of autism. The necessary genes are not allowed to turn on.
These children also suffer physical attacks, verbal assaults and neglect that in all leads to isolation and victims. They are prone to bullies and may in turn become bullies themselves.
These children also suffer physical attacks, verbal assaults and neglect that in all leads to isolation and victims. They are prone to bullies and may in turn become bullies themselves.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Cool day
Spent the day working again on van, almost there, lost an axle washer, need to get one at the junkyard on Monday.
walked the dog, and got some groceries. Little bit concerned about finances as the wind mill thing blew up in my face. Feel good about not being around the fella, gives little direction and material to help. Had a hard time knowing what I was selling, let alone mustering the finances and time and the where to to get going. My golly, what a bully I would so.
Told him he was hilarious and needed to be on the Letterman show like the ousted Illinois governor.
Somewhat sad, finished reading the PBSP article. Again Kantian philosophy brought up. Am I becoming a syngeristic snob too.
I am almost being challenged by friends I am getting to know to blossom? So what. Something in me is resisting.
Got the washer on the brake pedal today on the other Saturn I have. Now to find the short in the electrical system and I will have the car on its way.
walked the dog, and got some groceries. Little bit concerned about finances as the wind mill thing blew up in my face. Feel good about not being around the fella, gives little direction and material to help. Had a hard time knowing what I was selling, let alone mustering the finances and time and the where to to get going. My golly, what a bully I would so.
Told him he was hilarious and needed to be on the Letterman show like the ousted Illinois governor.
Somewhat sad, finished reading the PBSP article. Again Kantian philosophy brought up. Am I becoming a syngeristic snob too.
I am almost being challenged by friends I am getting to know to blossom? So what. Something in me is resisting.
Got the washer on the brake pedal today on the other Saturn I have. Now to find the short in the electrical system and I will have the car on its way.
Temple Grandin
Looked at Psyscho Motor Therapy. It is what Temple Grandin is talking about. I am now on the same page as she is. I understand now.
What a find. Take a look.
What a find. Take a look.
Friday, February 6, 2009
What a brag?
Seems the term "what a drag" has become "what a brag"
I am amazed at how self absorbed I am and how little I actually live life. Seems I am caught up in the inner life so much I have little left over to share, but again what would I do as an autistic.
Up to date on material and projects.
Found my suppliers supplier, shucks.
The $77 I paid several months ago is paying off.
Have a wonderous day and enjoy the wind
I am amazed at how self absorbed I am and how little I actually live life. Seems I am caught up in the inner life so much I have little left over to share, but again what would I do as an autistic.
Up to date on material and projects.
Found my suppliers supplier, shucks.
The $77 I paid several months ago is paying off.
Have a wonderous day and enjoy the wind
Thursday, February 5, 2009
AM
A productive day, a full 12 hours of activity. Almost done with the engine replacement on the caravan. Steady as you go.
Found out I am related to Abe Lincoln, not sure of connection. People I am related too are related to him.
No wind, warm, find that ok. Hoping for a SPECT scan here soon, also Guerilla Business school.
Hope to sell some wind mills.
Lots of change. I am not use to handling this much at one time. The use of St. John's Wort seems to help.
In walking the dog, she lulled behind me, had to call her to finish the course.
An awesome day ahead of me.
Found out I am related to Abe Lincoln, not sure of connection. People I am related too are related to him.
No wind, warm, find that ok. Hoping for a SPECT scan here soon, also Guerilla Business school.
Hope to sell some wind mills.
Lots of change. I am not use to handling this much at one time. The use of St. John's Wort seems to help.
In walking the dog, she lulled behind me, had to call her to finish the course.
An awesome day ahead of me.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Tuesday
Productive day. Not exciting, but awesome. Drove 275 miles, no incidents with the car.
Making headway on the van engine I am replacing. Feels good. Kinda feels like some good things are always going on about me.
Kathy at Work Center helped me out today. That was nice. She sent a fax for me.
Spent time at CSU. Parking lot tore up, parking garage going in.
Listen to music on the way home rather than Guy Finley.
Animals glad to see me get home. They wanted water and food.
Jason, the mechanic called. Too late, going to spent the money from that repair on the other van's windshield. He sure sounded desparate to have the work.
The other vans heater can wait.
Functionality leads to feelings of happiness. My functionality over the years has been up and down, full of holes and bumps. Would be nice to be able to concentrate and focus for longer periods of time.
Making headway on the van engine I am replacing. Feels good. Kinda feels like some good things are always going on about me.
Kathy at Work Center helped me out today. That was nice. She sent a fax for me.
Spent time at CSU. Parking lot tore up, parking garage going in.
Listen to music on the way home rather than Guy Finley.
Animals glad to see me get home. They wanted water and food.
Jason, the mechanic called. Too late, going to spent the money from that repair on the other van's windshield. He sure sounded desparate to have the work.
The other vans heater can wait.
Functionality leads to feelings of happiness. My functionality over the years has been up and down, full of holes and bumps. Would be nice to be able to concentrate and focus for longer periods of time.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Tuesday
Reflecting on the conversation I had with Mr. Ben Neff today about my ggrandfather's hanging. He flat out stated that grandpa was dealt injustice in loosing the homestead in Plum Creek, Neb.
Am wondering if a wrongful lawsuit is in order against the county. Wonder if Ben Neff's uncle, Sherrif Dick was involved in the scam?
He said Cylde Wallace may have had the tape I am looking for. Ben Neff strikes me as a man of honesty and literary intregity.
Is this what I am suppose to do, right an injustice of 140 years, even though the man who died was a mean SOB. His son turned out just like him, and passed it down thru my grandmother.
I take it Grandma hated her life as much as her father. Sad
I sit here at midnight pondering 3 or 4 generations of our family and more, feeling the pain of growing up with undiagnosed ADD and autism. I have cursed God and life for the afflicition.
No one listens, no one wants to hear me out. Self pity has ruined my life and weaken me.
It is only within a few years that I have learned to challenge my inner crictics and self talk. Guy Finley has helped there, but only after thousand of hours of listening to his tapes. Repeat and repeat some more. It has been hard to learn how the NT's live and think. When will they take the necessary time to go beyond the "bare facts" as Gary Spence would say.
I wonder how Gary Spence would handle this in court, 140 years after the "bare facts".
And that is putting aside the syngeristic method of law.
There must be thousands of stories similar to mine across the times of eternity. What does it take to right these stories.
As I sit here on 3 Feb 09 close to starving and homeless. What do I do? Am missing Train the Trainer cause of ADD. What a joke on my part to think or even believe it would happen or that I could learn to support myself and family. What a cruel, merciless joke, very similar to slavery.
Found out I am related to Abraham Lincoln via the Heath family today. I find out these things as I search.
T. Harv Eker would not want me on stage. I would be an embarrassment to him and all, much as my grandfather was to his generation.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. Echos of frustration and pain are yet to be heard.
Am wondering if a wrongful lawsuit is in order against the county. Wonder if Ben Neff's uncle, Sherrif Dick was involved in the scam?
He said Cylde Wallace may have had the tape I am looking for. Ben Neff strikes me as a man of honesty and literary intregity.
Is this what I am suppose to do, right an injustice of 140 years, even though the man who died was a mean SOB. His son turned out just like him, and passed it down thru my grandmother.
I take it Grandma hated her life as much as her father. Sad
I sit here at midnight pondering 3 or 4 generations of our family and more, feeling the pain of growing up with undiagnosed ADD and autism. I have cursed God and life for the afflicition.
No one listens, no one wants to hear me out. Self pity has ruined my life and weaken me.
It is only within a few years that I have learned to challenge my inner crictics and self talk. Guy Finley has helped there, but only after thousand of hours of listening to his tapes. Repeat and repeat some more. It has been hard to learn how the NT's live and think. When will they take the necessary time to go beyond the "bare facts" as Gary Spence would say.
I wonder how Gary Spence would handle this in court, 140 years after the "bare facts".
And that is putting aside the syngeristic method of law.
There must be thousands of stories similar to mine across the times of eternity. What does it take to right these stories.
As I sit here on 3 Feb 09 close to starving and homeless. What do I do? Am missing Train the Trainer cause of ADD. What a joke on my part to think or even believe it would happen or that I could learn to support myself and family. What a cruel, merciless joke, very similar to slavery.
Found out I am related to Abraham Lincoln via the Heath family today. I find out these things as I search.
T. Harv Eker would not want me on stage. I would be an embarrassment to him and all, much as my grandfather was to his generation.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. Echos of frustration and pain are yet to be heard.
Monday
Still reading Gary Spence's book, How to Argue and Win Every Time. Takes me time to read, some of his lines are confusing and difficult to digest.
No wind today. Blitztime event not so hot. Worked on the van, got the motor in its mounts and the trani buttoned up. Major achievement.
Ran with the dog this morning. Am feeling it this afternoon.
Spoke with Ben Neff from Lexington about Thomas Hallowell Sr. He does have a bit of info on the man. Writing a book about him and I Print.
Broke my appointment with Lindsay. Adam called about paper work. Tired this afternoon, not much for activity.
Emails are slow. People calling me about work. What a twist and I have nothing to offer.
Am missing Train the Trainer in LA. Money didn't come about. Party wanting bankruptcy help folded also, along with a buyer for the RV. How strange.
Wonder what my harmonics are?
No wind today. Blitztime event not so hot. Worked on the van, got the motor in its mounts and the trani buttoned up. Major achievement.
Ran with the dog this morning. Am feeling it this afternoon.
Spoke with Ben Neff from Lexington about Thomas Hallowell Sr. He does have a bit of info on the man. Writing a book about him and I Print.
Broke my appointment with Lindsay. Adam called about paper work. Tired this afternoon, not much for activity.
Emails are slow. People calling me about work. What a twist and I have nothing to offer.
Am missing Train the Trainer in LA. Money didn't come about. Party wanting bankruptcy help folded also, along with a buyer for the RV. How strange.
Wonder what my harmonics are?
Sunday, February 1, 2009
sunday
Found Dr. Cheri Florance's website, www.cheriflorance.com and ebrainlabs.com. Wonderous. Hits home for me, especially the part about her son being born a blue baby, much like myself.
Cool and sunny here today. Sleep some, awoke and worked a bit and fell back asleep. Watching for a "dip" since I feel like I am attempting to sabatoge myself from being successful.
Take care and enjoy your wonderous life.
Cool and sunny here today. Sleep some, awoke and worked a bit and fell back asleep. Watching for a "dip" since I feel like I am attempting to sabatoge myself from being successful.
Take care and enjoy your wonderous life.
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