April 30

April 30 and spraying Canadain thistles with a vinegar solution. Also discovered badger holes out here, looking for moles more than likely.

Black cat still here. Put new carpet in hallway. Need to use dry kind next time as water leaches into carpet from tannin's in wood staining the carpet.

Fixed starter for van, need to put it in.

Walked with dog just at dark. Dog has a way of communicating that I find fascinating. She just came down the hall to ask me for a treat, a hotdoy before bed. It is a habit with her. At first I was annoyed with her about this. Then I followed thru with the hot dog and she is content afterwords, so I believe we have connected.


Farmers in the nearby fields all day spraying and harrowing. Rain in the forcast.

Lots of DNA info on the web.

Aspie

Aspie traits will always be with me, even the lack of discipline and drive at times are the result of fading motivation or a fixation on not allowing synergistic or Kantian thought into my life.

God is in everything and still is upon His throne. What more does the world want? To crucify Christ again, heavens not. Man is and always is a sinner. The final judgement is final, no second chances.

Dog and I walked this morning, snow on the way.

Defensiveness, I need to get a handle on that what it means and says about me. Read something about it the other day.

Rain storm

Been 3 days of rain, never seen this in Colo. Maybe 3-5 inches of rain. Sometimes we get thunder showers in the summer that flood the gullys. This is steady and breaking the back of the drought we have been experiencing.

Learning more of present economy, listening to Karg report on KBDI last nite. He was interviewing business journalists. Not impressed. Just seemed a rehash of what wasn't acknowledged.

Even Investment U doesn't seem to get even this present day. They seem more interested in selling some new secret of this or that than leveling with people.

Good day.

Genealogy

Rotten's bible is from a Mathias Case family via Clarkson Case to Calvin L. Case in NJ

Heard from Julie Buckmaster, she is a 3rd cousin 5 times removed.

Warm day, sore from the new work load and planting potato's

Saw Nicki today, she seems sweeter than usual.

Took chipper to Sears to have repaired. Came home

Whitfield Case

Whitfield Case may be our lost gggrandfather. Census records confirm males of right age and a will of Stephen Case confirms his father.

Jennifer Jones on Rootsweb's databases is an anchor in this discovery.

Decent day, little motivation. An up and about. Took a walk without dog, she seems reluctant for now. Coyotes seem to have disappeared as their scat is not present in the last 2 weeks. Farmers may have taken care of their presence...

Some wind, moved vehicles. Saturn still runs rough. That is just the way it will have to be.

Found some material on social neural science today and posted to Twitter.

Refused to be on Blitz.time today. Feels good for some reason.

Respect

My son remarked of my lack of respect for others. Shocked I was and yet appreciative.

My thoughts are respect even for myself is lacking and difficult to measure or talk about.

My son accomplished his purchase and seemed to be very happy. I am happy for him. The washer and dryer will simplify his life.

His change to graveyard was requested and he got it. Hard on him. He does great with what he has. I am proud of him.

Sears

At Sears my son purchased a stackable washer and dryer. He has decent credit. Wow.

Good decision for him. Hope it works out well for him. He seems to be a bit in an attitude realignment mode at this time and struggling to deal with it. First by being away from people on graveyard shift and ...

It is a start. Remarked to him about his bitterness towards people a few times today. Took in stride.

He seems to work with me and stays up front with me on most conversations. Remarked today about the wrecked Saturn. How I was pissed at him for not talking to me directly. Got handled well and he has been quite direct since. Good for him.

Candor, clarity, and communication.

Good and decent day.

Blizzard over

No more wind or snow. Cool here at 30 degrees and NW wind.

Autisitics have trouble connecting words with actions or vice versa.
Their feelings are disconnected from themselves and others.
The world they have is an inner one and chaotic.

They are told that their inner world is trash and doesn't count, leaving many in dispair and hopelessness as well as powerlessness.

Addictions abount, from obsessive thoughts to drugs, namely alcohol.

Religion isn't much comfort to them as only a sauve, because the leaders refuse to recognize the workings of these people.

Snowstorm

Snow is finally here. Not much wind though.

Been snooping into my genealogy a bit the last few days. No exciting clues as of yet. Covered lots of material.

Found some material on autism on April 1. Struck a note with me.

Otherwise I have not done much. Been to town and continue my walking after windy, cold bitter winds last weekend.